…no one, really gives a shit - about hardcore, satanic and - draco path, people - who are the selfish, and arrogant - asshats - who parade around, and act - like their way of being is far better…somehow.

It is not a good, way to live life - and that was found, to be the case - very many times, already. It feels as if, going selfish nature - implied, supposedly…left hand path, followers - of gargoyle, ugly nasty shit - that makes no difference, whatsoever…I just felt that, it needed to be explained - and maybe, explored - a tiny bit.

That was just - fine, for several moments - and years, of…seeing others - follow the other currents, where even - crazy small…unnatural accidents, with - things like the death current, and - tall claims…of even, wild life - and plants - dying, for pure - unmitigated contact - with unnatural…energetic - life…could just be, very implant - mind influence, to help sway…the open, and operating - active - opinions of…other people.

This was where, some people - asked, indirectly for help - on how to deal with, and how to best cope - with the dragon path, of life - which was, supposed to be glamour - and higher prosperity, and self constructed - wealth, at all costs.

It feels - very plain to me now, that the dragon path, and draconian - nature of reality, feels - very hogwash, and a little bit…grey area - satan feeling, somehow. All of the followers, I have been next to…studying, and wishy washy - talking to, feel as if…life, is just brutal - or unfair, and just unlivable somehow.

That - felt - very sad, and narrow minded. So we have to be very certain of our own beliefs, and careful - of how we, say things, and come across to other people - literally…nearly, at all times. Or else - they might care, less about ourselves - and claim that - WE…ourselves, follow, the shallow ended - dragon - draconian path…which feels, like an empty claim of very - sorrowful energies right now.

We can stand, on much higher - and lower beliefs, but just - recognize, that the dragon - does not like rogue assholes, who have no self respect - or compassion, at all. From what I knew…of draconian followers, from before…is that - they kind of…neglect this - small detail, and belief, and…ask the devils, and other - would-be god forms…to have them, live forever…

But that is not - what they really, want - and what they strive for, might be - anti-reality, self and worldly - neglect…it does not make any sense, at all - and we just…individually, need to strive for better, strength - and more positive - world…understanding, and - self, empowering - thoughts, on a more…current, and productive - basis, of living life - far more, daily…empowered - current…of magick, and sorcery - induced, life.

This is because - many people, clearly - do not ever, get or yield - magick, and sorcery related results, and that - can be a very bothersome idea, and topic - to deal with. I know that many other authors, do not - technically, have any - ritual sorcery, lives…whatsoever, and that is why - they tend not to engage, with clients - and readers, and other customers of their products…even though, they might be selling up a storm, of little goodies. That is not - the direct, point - of their businesses, and that is what they have - openly stated, and had…to greatly, imply - because they do not, take - greater questions, about their works (…somehow - as most good authors, never do - because, they do not have - an open and specific way, of chatting - and openly addressing the ideas - of their writings, and books…in a very open, and open - discussion, or even - private talking, and chat…sort of way)…although - I do have this open, because I want people relaxed - and into talking, and chatting with me.

That - idea alone, might be - a slightly big deal, and others need to embrace this idea. It feels, as if - I am not the only one - directly talking, to readers - and other forms, of clients - but…far too many authors, and other writing - types of professionals, simply do not - openly, connect with - or even…offer up, higher information - other than, what they find…for their own lives, and their own - self gain…which made, zero - fucking sense at all.

I was even surprised of this - to my own, cost…because I know of some authors, I would like to ask…about - small things like, their education - and possibly, even their - science, and thinking background…and guess - fucking - what? -

…they have no channels to connect with the writing author, and that - almost pissed me the fuck off. Some writers might offer email, but that is - not - remotely, what the fuck I am talking about…slightly - not the same thing, at all.

Pedantic - and very over dramatic details - written sales pitches, and very - slow drawn out, fucked up…verbiage, and off - point - talking is what I have seen, from authors and other writers getting reported, and fuck - me…just nasty things, the authors do not want to deal with, which - honestly…should have just been stated - quite neatly, upfront.

I do not - remotely - have this in me to do, and I want my readers, to be open and honest, about their lives - and how they are getting into my books…but that, is just the small - part of things, for now. I feel like I am the only one - who has ever offered, up daily - chat, and open talking…even over internet or phone, if needed…because the occult is very confusing, and I would like to clear - a few things up.

So, in a way…I have already - done, my part of make things - crystal clean, and clear - with very powerful - written works, and other…forms of literature to guide, others - to better learning, and personal life…direct breakthroughs - in general.

My magick has done, quite enough - good, in other peoples, lives - which is why, my ritual for hire service, gets a lot of feedback and attention - and then…my own life, has been enhanced by my magick - very greatly, and deeply - to the point, that very quantum results have been…pulled out - of literal, brick and mortal - thin air…and that is something else, I write and talk about. Which is also, why - magick is quite useful. But also, quite readily - and lethally, quiet and - severely - effective, when done in the right ways. I find that, a small bit of meditation - helps, and then - we have a detonation sequence - of a thousand light years - deep, because…frequent nightmares, might point - to aggressive behaviors - and no one…remotely, considered - that some, nearby mother fuckers, might - be remote, projecting onto my ass, and - this is considered…to be a curse, and that is just - a small part of what…I receive…

…in open written letters, and even - long messages, and emails - out of no where. With those - far off…now, enemies - and targets, for custom ritual services - now…definitely - up for deathly raw - grabs, as…I must - use djinn, and Greek baneful magick - to now…offer up curse removal, and then - even, hoist - away these awful individuals…for a very - nightmarish - time of, infrequent - night stabs of pain, and life annoyance…fun - and delightful, praise - to the demons, and god forms - that…might have helped out, just here.

It tends to be, the case - that it is, seen as - hard to difficult to get anything done, with magick - and ritual sorcery. Although, with the proper ritual - magick, and guidance, I feel this is definitely, not the case. Others might swing away, at unprofitable systems - of sorcery books, and other - greater, materials…that do not, technically - guide or really helps them at all. That is a very good situation, for learning - and for information that the occult has grown, and become something, far - grander - and sweeter than it could ever…possibly be.

This is merely - the situation of greater - occult and sorcery - forces coming together, and powers - that even, old hat magicians - might grow curious over. This is not about, trying to defeat enemies - exactly, or even - to extract - actual, gold bars…from the nearby hills, but it is about - creating a mega solid, foundation - using magick, and sorcery - for very, long term - life gains.

We are also embarking on - a very curious and powerful journey, into the occult - deeper, and…other curious unique frontiers. I am not about to say, that - rats or city sewage does not - exist here, but you get the idea…that - this is still the personified - occult, and those other…individuals - who claim extreme, wealth and glory - for the sake of personal - life results, and power…might be in for a little - mountain of surprises. There are no - take backs in the occult, and you will earn - whatever, you gain and keep.

This has to be, something else - a little more bothersome to others, who think that - the magick-space…of the internet, and beyond - is just a mere fantasy - bullshit - plot…of mischief, because - no one knows…what goes on - at home, for many individuals. I would personally say that not much - honestly might be going on, at home - in general - for many, psionic - occultists - who claim,, wealth and fortune - but live…and great, and grievous life - of horrors, and personal…treasures, gone lost - and wild…because, they maybe - did not treat - lucifer, or some of the other…mastodon, nightshade god forms…so nicely.

We are not merely talking about - open ended practitioners, but - severe guidance, and a little personal encouragement is needed, to know…and correspond with - actual, life results - and magick, without - deep control, and guidance…can be - a little bit, unbecoming. It factors in all, accidental - mind ruts, and pit falls - entirely.

Which is why we also, have to consider - the nice sides, of the occult, in our own ways - because…no one truly believes, that - magick…would be worthless, and unnecessary evil - if…they really - wanted - anything to work out -

…and I do mean, for the general - order, and well being - of the world. If we are to keep - all of our followers, and drastic approaches - to magick, from being - ultimately, catastrophically…decimated - and disintegrated…wholly, then we might - lightly consider - some sort of - guidance or partnership…or even, merely - being friendly - with higher level, sorcerers - and occultists - who definitely…know - a dat bit more, than we might be used to…in the occult, and in general.

That is what - I greatly offer to my friends, and colleagues - and clients, on a daily - and given…regular basis…of my life. This has always been - a charished - and established union, of confided - hope, and worries…and even beyond all, balderdash - and destruction - we have…life careful moments of considation, and life peace…which is what I consider, my own - magick, serenity and solace.

I feel this is - very unjustified - and very cowardly - because it just does not make any sense, at all. Others might feel - this is the wrong way, to go about - life, but it just makes…a lot of sense - that no one else, in the world…would matter - for the moment, but these people - who might, want to - feel, and test out my - purest baneful magick.

It just sucks, to feel - and know that, others - are very tuned into, messing with other people - and fucking things up, this god damned deeply. I should know…because I am in groups, and other places - with these, fine - fuck faces…and they happen, to be - nearly nice and likable people - in other ways.

I do not give - a stone hard, crap - or shit, how they turn out - but people, should know, that I use…my cursing powers, liberally - on these fine - young and older folks, who are - just plain…out - not good, fucking people.

Fake joking aside…they were - nothing but adolescent, mischief - makers - and private, scumbags - I think it was…just another year ago, I was dealing - with a smaller group…of these people, who might have gotten told on…because, they were - messing with others, just very…blatantly and unfortunately - I personally…do not, tolerate - outright, mischief - makers…in my own way, because does not - directly, make any sense.

I feel the job - goes to other people, when…you literally want noting accomplished - or figured out - and that is some lazy, horse shit - at that point. When we need, results - and people to silene…forever - it just does not make any sense, that these - people are that - fucking…waste of space, wicked - and reproachful.

I would like to feel - that…this does a great, service in general - because general bad people have to be taken down…but some other people, find this to be - almost unnecessary, and if they accidentally speak against - myself…even - indirectly…

…they are now - part of my, duelist efforts - to cremate the living undead. I will make them shut up, and that is how - life damages, start up - and no one wants…to be remotely, part of that - living undead…mess, of shit stains - piling up.

I am not saying my baneful efforts, are so lethal - but I am saying that - I know too many people, who would never…want to see me - aim at them, whatsoever…forever.

That is because I run - an ethical operation here, and it is - just bullshit, stupidity - forever…and it all - needs to be squashed and silenced up. I do not need to hear, random - evil outside comments, meant - to strike doom and fear - because…enough is enough already, and I do give up - literally trying to help, or entertain these types of people - or open ended, nonsense - bullshit conversation…folks - who are just up their own asses - when it comes to - reasonable, clean - and good - thoughts.

This is a - small thing, but common find, among - the occult's higher - writers, and members, because I see a lot of smaller, flak being - thrown around and it makes people, need to - subvert themselves - or otherwise, run and hide…quite - murderously. If this was a common, enough - practice - then you might seen, very gullible and tremendous - numbers of people, enter into the sorcery, and occult worlds…and try, to - sample and dabble their hands - into darker, sorcery - and nightshade magick - types and forms, that might not be so great, and helpful. It all depends on what - people desire in life, and this is hugely part - of the growing process.

…technically, this is a relatively new - process, that began, with - the newer age of magick, coming out - and the higher availability of - sorcery, feels - as if…it is quite done, through a more deliberate, and - possibly stronger, set of practice - forms…in general. I wanted others to know of my own, thinking trends - and thought forms - and that, became - a very obvious idea, to help others - understand.

It has - little to nothing, to do - with how…people, normally get along into the - occult, and magick - and ritual magick, is just - normal thinking stuff. Although it tends to be, the case - that very refined individuals - try their mantle on hardcore, magick…and then - interesting things, might end up happening. I tried to inform others, of the uncommon - balance, of trying to - get people away from - slightly…unstable ways of thinking about magick, and then - the hardcore nonsense - ultra gory, ways…of performing, very repetitive - nightshade, crazy other stuff…that involved, blood sacrifice - and other forms…of outlandish - basic petitions to make everything…seem easy enough. But most people - do not take blood donations, or even - blood sacrifice - to be a basic…petition - so it just makes sense…

…that none of these, workers - and followers of deep black magick - ever, happen - to do well in life, or ever…even work out, at all. I had to follow some deep - and personal trends on this one, and understand - that real, desperate for results - carnal black magick, which forms…around - some dark trees…greater black magick, forms…of magick - might never, be enabled or trusted - so readily by…most of the masses.

Even I was - very confused, upfront - with all of the newer materials coming out, on most of the occult, doctrines…it just made, no sense - upfront, and that…presented a real problem, in general.

Then it came down, to those - unrealistically - espousing, these false - and fake results, and very badly determined people, are…always - on the lookout for horrific trouble to get into. It just does not feel like a good - mind, and living space - to work, into - ever. I have felt a small need to distance myself, but then…it just becomes - very stupid, for others to ever - have been…so unwise, and outright - retarded, to have…under estimated, darker - sorcery forms - that might leave…some people, quite weakened, and - rather ultimately, afraid - of what is to come…next.

This is not about, being powerless - in magick - but it is about, being - rather subtracted in our own, ways…of doing things, that we - might consider wrong, or unjustified. It feels - very clueless and afraid - and that is why, we have to take - mostly, far extra caution - with the people…wh present - information, that might - make ourselves, or others…quite uncertain - or afraid of…their present reality - or living, life path.

That is also…why I have, proclaimed - that still more…of these people - who claim good results, on heinous or - outright…badly formed, black magick - just all need to wash out, and perish away already. The stuff - just needs to transform into - something more useful already. It does not come from the nightshade, to be - so lethal feeling, or offensive - to just, so many…damned people, today. I would not remotely, work with - or trust any of these, outright - fools, or demented - otherworldly folks - who have not done…a scrap of magick in their own right, and yet - see…it as wise, or the proper thing to do - to instruct or teach others…of these same, useless or - wicked methods. It all just comes down, to proper - mind thinking, and just…keeping a sane, life path - really. Otherwise you definitely risk - landing yourself, in the same - pitiful pools of regret, as all of these - other…very vanquished, and nonsense - living…people, who think that - the idea of God is determined…by, how badly you might - accidentally come out…of this insanity path, of black sorcery and living.

This is something, I could never - live up to, or even…remotely, feel comfortable - doing, in my own - magick, and self right.

It was thought - that most occultists - were very quiet, read a lot - and just studied the hell out of…older texts - and that felt, like a very odd - feeling, because - it is not quite always welcomed, or true - that this might be the case. There are select - modern, and only some older texts - that some, deeper…or hardcore occultists - get into. Which means, that most of it - might just have to be modern, grimoire - structure - or even, things like…my own books, possibly.

I find this to be - the case, in my small - and larger situations - of grandeur, and power hungry, mind development, when - the rough folks come out…and slyly - want to know what everyone is reading…and - whatever we might be up to - that they, might want to see that…stuff, as well…

It feels - like a brutal trap, and it feels - very unaccustomed - to the truth, of what is really - going on. It also feels, very silly - and slightly stupid. It it is a never ending game, with these - people, and I find it - very self, burden - silly beyond hell fire…belief - that anyone would care about, other peoples occult - whereabouts. That just hits - a very shallow, tone - and grave, for myself…because - so many are in and out of the occult, that it feels - very wrong, for others - to claim, anything real - or even shallow…about - how the sorcery, might work - for our lives…ever.

This might - be an annoying issue, or just - outright, lying…for others, to get into - the thick of things, and just - burgeon their own - self, lying beliefs…forward - into brand new - thought magick. Where they imply, getting into - darker - or brand new…and very interesting stuff, that might have to be tossed away - in a way…because it does not make any sense - that it was ever…alright, or acceptable - to begin with…anyway.

I have my own thought groups, and circles - and it makes a whole load - of difference, in a very…different way, to have your own - occult path, and to realize - your own self - through powerful…self knowledge, and ritual - sorcery. I have to do - mine on a constant - basis, and now…it has just become - a very pure, and normal - part of my daily life.

I also have to actively - meditate - on a deep, and constant - basis, and this is…technically, open eyed - thinking meditation…with very, obvious - shift of thought and intention…to get me - zoned out, and connection - with higher level, thoughts and feelings…of outside - communication, and - energetic sorcery…connection.

It is not - that big of a deal, to get drawn into the occult - by the way, and to form your own - very unique path…is just how, it all has to work out. I feel - that very promising days are ahead, and even though - very many…supposed, novice, and years past - occultists, cannot lay claim…to remotely - ever, having heard of me - or knowing me…

I say - very openly, but - relatively privately, that…it has always been curious, but also…different, and - questionable - to make deep friends, in the occult worlds.

This is also just my own way - of delivering a very, personal - strong message to as many…occultists - and new sorcerers - as possible…

…because it feels - as if it definitely matters, to be - always on the alert, and very magnetized - to very private, but powerful - integral life…freedom and knowledge, like we - of the occult, and magick - and god form…using - ritual sorcery - kingdoms, and worlds…have to look, forward to - each weekend, and day (…or night).

It has been a very knife worthy fight, as well. Some moments come with shock, and awe - and not quite a good, mentality and foundation - for the unwell, who seem to be all over the occult - worlds. I have to bring these people up, because they tend to be - all around, the money books, and anything else - quite clever, or useful - in the sorcery - worlds where…there is a lot of practical buzz going around. I happen to be part of this community, but only - for relatively, irrelevant chat.

This has felt very - odd and cumbersome in some ways. I have found that - very illegal moments, tend to come - from over excited people…even, praising illegal other authors - from…subsequent results, that - tend to be a little bit suspicious - I just have to say. It does not come directly, from profound - indirect user experience. It just feels, very odd - and out of date with itself, over time. I have found, that this is nothing to go by…because the personal results, had to be - very skyhigh - and that means, that - very excessive and extreme…thinking, is needed, to beat - ahead of the curve, and to - dial into…real…life and family, and world results. For myself and others, only.

That is why I have - just worked, and…kind of - just kept continuing to work, for each year - all years, that I have been active, in the working occult. It has been - a fucking…dime drop - tricky steps - trick…and a half. It has not been remotely, fathomable or easy - but it has - still kept me on my feet - in some positive, and very life relinquished ways.

I have - immeasurably learned, to keep - myself narrow and my mind…very stable - and without cross moments, ever. Meditation - is daily and is, directly part of this process - but it is also, very directly part of my focus, process. That is also why - I have written sorcery spiritual magick, and meditation books. With - likely, still more coming into the future.

I feel it is still, quite good - and powerful to throw deep energies in to the future, and night sky - and just feel into where the god forms, and other deities - are taking me. With - or without things like…deep Greek magick, and then - Sumerian enlightening the skies, with my thoughts freely flowing…I think, I still see the greater - fortunes…and lives, of sorcerers - of times past. I sometimes - feel myself among them. Nothing crazy about - connected with magick, differently - and seeing into other star forms, and other directions - in reality, to gaze into - powerful, and…long - but not forgotten kingdoms of knowledge.

…these are just my meditations -on a nightly and weekly basis, but they still - give me profound, insights - and impact, on the worlds…and night skies, are always - beyond, amazing…and I do this, as often as I can.

These are the folks - who claim to live a good life, but will bad mouth - yourself, and tell you to fuck off…when you explain, what you mean about…your own view of a good life, or positive situation. It does not - make any sense, and it can be downright - scandalous and crazy. Nothing about, these situations - might remotely make any sense, ever. Even though that makes them - very perverse, and extreme - folks, who need…a serious ass whipping because…they appear to know, just how - life works, and then…they take our their own devices, of torture - and out of no where, they whip your…cherry ass into shape.

These also tend to be rougher, folks - who are not so likeable, but this is a general observation, with - private, very stern or ugly individuals, who are hard to come by - but are very suspicious and constantly - out to get other people. All of that - stains the blood, and can hardly - be conceived of, by others…because - why would that be knowable or tolerated ever…to be that, obviously hardcore - or sick - or twisted…in the mind.

It finds itself - to be quite obvious, and that means - very stained, results for others - but we can do something about this, recently - felt, trend…and that would be an assortment of sorcery to keep, these - people - well…at bay.

They do not need to be, around us - even mentally, or visually - but we can put up our guard, and be safe - without them. It can be rather frustrating to know, that these - plagues of the heart, and soul - exist…but they can also be, a rather - insulting pain - in the ass…if they were ever to be known, or called out. That feels - roughly about, right - however.

They do not - also, need to be directly apprehended, or made - welcome ever. That might just feed into their soulless bullshit, brigades. They do not, take to insights - very kindly - and they might just be, private - home - bullies in their own ways. Although they are, very - strong minded, or even - susceptibly kind, mistakenly - upfront…they might even be, a rare breed of - pure wrung, psychopath - who have no idea…what they sound like, and what they are doing. Which makes the situation - that much more, ugly and - literally, more offensive.

…I have seen these people, in white hat - and black magick circles, and they can be - the most well intended people, but also - very panick stricken and oddly, evil - demented sounding…assholes, with - very many people - in anxiety and shock, at how they come across.

We are not trying to train others, on strictly - how to deal with these termites, but it is very - shallow grave, people…which might be, a hard sell - to consider them, remotely - normal, folks at all. I would also - not advise, only connecting with, any of them - if needed, because…that can be a life detrimental - connection, and who knows - where those…bonds might lead you. I have had - many of these sorts of connection over time, and several - of these people, are just disquieted - life…junkies, who are often - confused, for dark lord shifty stuff (…do not confuse this, with - those of the drug life, even though they can be - relatively, similar acting).

We must remain hyper vigilant - and still continue, those eager messages, to myself - instructing, and reporting…random, psychopath indivuals - to (myself - and others) because I know…people are alarmed, and on alert - but also…I have known of these people for many years. They might also make you lie, about life - in a very shady, and unique way…but the best ways, forward - are - honestly…

…to keep safe, and to know that - maybe, I have seen - and dealt with hundreds of these folks, and shady other people - over the past, many years…and it is - honestly, and literally - just apart…of the shadows, and dust - game.

Which can be a very - odd, and interesting time. I do not openly wish for these - people to continue to be around me, so earnestly - and greatly. They are not, easy to spot - because in some ways, they need to stay hidden, and very deliberately - sabotage, and moan - on other people…because they tend to be seen as (…not my own words - or thoughts directly - but part of a big lesson, in why people go - outright insane)…cowards, and retarded people - or even outright belligerent and offensive.

That was supposed to be my long lost - insights, from years ago - and then, that just stuck home - and others, moved on…and others - came back. Then now, we have brand new - crazies on various platform - that I have even been…greatly, and openly warned about. Which all sucks, to hear about…honestly.

I have tried to - reason with more open, and honest - people…because that felt like the right thing to do at the time. Yet things can get a little fishy and hairy, all - at once. I have felt even - the urge to try to throw a bit of dogmatic - lecture, at some of them - because…it just felt, good to try to reason with some of them - but then…they either tried to block - me, or else…I had to move on…because - getting cussed out, for no reason - or having them - try to blame me openly, for random stuff - that still makes no sense…cannot easily be reasoned with. Especially for some - who I have known for some time.

Some I have known, for just - days or weeks, and they - had to throw in their mega, thought insights - on the spot, and that was - a few odd moments or two, of extreme - heinous thoughts…which I did not entertain, but it was - certainly…random and unexpected, to learn of such - insights…on, really - various…ideas - and stuff.

If that was not - encouraging, enough - just know that the occult world is only one huge dedicated market - and that, I am in other industries as well. Even personal develpoment has its own weird folks - and that is, sadly…pretty much the same thing. So we have a lot of people who think it is alright to talk out loud - and openly, be quantumly odd - and crazy…interesting, to…

…no body at all. Which is where - we might have to stop a few of these people, right in their tracks.

No one is advocating, speaking to these - people at any reasonable, length - at all. But it is known how they act, and - do things…obviously, and on a daily basis. I have grown - accustomed to figuring them out, and that is - just growing to understand how, they are - and where they might be, on any given basis. It is unfair - to have to deal with, them - at any rate, but we still have to be…unkind in our own ways, right back at them - which is the unanimous regular response, they tend to receive. That is - just the regular norm, for now - and most people - quite like that they are not, directly - remotely catered to, because - that would be…as they have - mentioned to me…quite - god awful and just - heinous.

I would say that more people are gaining - more awareness over time, but that - is just a general, nonsense - design thing…that people do not - want to trespass on.

I have also found that - people are not quite, so generous with their time, so…never mind trying, to get people…to open their minds, a little deeper - on even…this - subject matter. Even though it can make for vaguely - interesting conversation.

Others might plow forward, not caring - but you have to keep your guard up, and I worry…that the masses, consensus - here, might not give a crap…well enough - to put up their blocks…when - a well needed…

…shove to the ground - might be needed, at the right time.

I say this because, some other - people ask if I recommend any other authors or even other fiction - or occult writers…and I have to say, I might have had to take the mantle on this one - and just say…to stick to myself. I have not found - remotely intelligent people, who had a shred of ethics - or anything worthwhile or meaningful to say - in or out of the occult worlds.

We are talking, full on - blood-red fueled, maggot feeling - nobody people - who are out to get…apparently, no one at all. Even though that, felt - openly stupid, and a bit retarded - because the guy, felt - very anguished, and heartbroken - and…shit. He is technically not out to get any attention - but he is a very stupid, and oddly moronic - person, who is very - highly emotional, and not quite stable - for any long term, even friendly - vague, relationship. Always something - crazy going on for a lot of these lives, and they are very - private people…whose lives are sadly - mega saturated, and full of turmoil.

I will not advocate - getting to know any of these people, because that sounds - like utter, tosh - nonsense, and it feels very stupid - to even suggest that these folks, are anything positive - or good, at all.

Others, might see them - as open company - but I have to forestall them, and let them all know, the dangers - of dealing with…folks that mess around with drugs at all (very - secretive, and private folks - as well) because they can be hardcore crazy, and not - so good, on private ethics, where…anyone is fair, game - to fuck around with. Which is not a good idea, at all - either…but the drug folks, come and go - and mentally unstable, or openly insane - people…need to be dealt with, very carefully - because they can be brutal - and they, are also liable to - bait and trap you, into ideas - and conversation that is not - so nice, or even - positive, or playful. Merely - outright nasty - and sasquatch, fucked up conversatino, and - the damned, blame game…is when you start moving on from folks, and blocking people. Which I have seen - very obviously, and openly, because of how - shockingly negligent - people…from nearly any market or industry can be.

The other - things to mention, is possibly - just be cautious of people, as much as you…can, maybe. It matters, that everyone is falsely - positive, and others - are just privately disgraced, and trying to find another group - of people to mess around with, which is not - favorable or great stuff - but I tend to do protection magick, to prevent people - like that…from penetrating any of my own, knowledge - and social circles.

I may not - be able, to fully - read minds, or situations - so well, quite yet…but I am, dumbfounded at house - predictable and powerless people, can sometimes be. It does not strike me as a smart - or indeed - any favorable move, at all…to try to charm people, into - getting into - life details with you…just to die, away in solemn - hardship, and crazy other pride filled - spite traps…like alarming others - with hardcore - devil, black magick stuff. Then maybe claiming complete - insanity to others, and that - they are doing things…that are perfectly fine, only. Nothing - outlandish or bad, at all…which is a total, lie - anyway.

Life can feel pretty - messy and fucked up, with random - hardcore negligent, people - around us all. I just wish - others, would open their souls, eyes - and blind spots a bit deeper, so that we would not, have - so many unhindered situations - where everyone, supposedly believes…everyone, else - for no…gosh darn - good reason, at all.