I know this happened greatly to myself, and - that was very hopeful, and helpful - to everyone I looked up to…back then, and - not remotely, now…at all. I just see them all for who they really are, and not - everyone is who they, remotely appeared, to be.

I found - great, solid hope and longing - for a better time, but that was…very odd moments, when I wished - for folks, to stop - coming down with - plague-feeling…odd predicaments, and other - ridiculous and crazy…life situations.

That was beyond - brutal, and insignificant - because odd people in the occult, is far too many…of the current folk, who sit - and listen, and take on…full writing, and listening projects online - to explore, dark shit - that never…really - ever, before…existed.

It feels odd - but just to let you all know, that not - sincerely everyone is batshit - crazy, in the occult - and that is where, I want to explore - my own fields…and vices, in a very - thorough and extreme way.

We can all come together - and cheer for greater life, learning - and other things, that make a lot of sense. It just feels - very normal and natural to be part of something - that is real, and growing, and that…the oddness, or weird - or outlandish factor - gets disciplined into shape…and then we - can finally explore, and practice, stuff like…

…demon magick - more openly - and then…maybe explore, some sumerian paradigm stuff - without regret. Then we can move into - maybe greek stuff, and then…other odd things, like the djinn rulers - and egyptian - rulers as well. These types of things are - far more modest than you might, realize - but it is very fanciful - materials, put into - stable, ground and solid form. It feels very good - to write within the occult, and to just - have a very - powerful…framework for future - generations, and even - older folks, who…stayed away, because the current - odd, weirdness framework - from other authors - might not…have panned out well - for anyone…really. I just get this - very much…because I was part of this, and had to make my own ways, out.