[Closed] Powerless and afraid is not good

I try to think of times when, the occult was a little less, chaotic and troublesome. But that means thinking about…other things, and some thoughts are just, outside the realm, of preconditioning, and attempting to understanding, life…and the occult, through regular - ideas, and a - fresh matter, brain - that is not, really…that into the magick, and occult way of thinking. I am not always so good, with a regular - muggle, and super, very humanoid - feeling…asleep ways of living this life.

It is not a very good outcome, in general. Because I know how desperately it becomes, when you lie and strife for greatness, and then….end up as a lying, heap of sewage waste - in the street. It is not a good, feeling - neither is it a good outcome, ever…to become, openly - sadist, or satanic with our beliefs. With all - things, treated equal…what does it mean, to be a regular…vaguel ethical human being, who is not - a great, breast - monster…at home, and on the streets. It does not help anything that being - a very unfathomable horror, is openly - explored in some groups…

…and the radionics trials, of some others - when they privately, and openly attempt, to slay and kill other people - and then…lie, and deny that, this was their aim…the whole way through. It is just a comedy sketch, of something I will never get into - because my life, has to deal with actual…occult business - and real, business magick - works, and other things…that are not resolved, around - lying my ass off, about if my magick works or not - on a weekly, and daily - given basis. It is very - retarded…asinine stupid stuff.

These are not, good situations to be - in, and full out - occult wars, where everyone is running away, from the outcomes, of even…their own, living lives - and other crazy…destroyed, demonstrations - of ridiculous - creed, and unbiased - judgement…from, other detractors…it just remains to be seen - that very stupid, and lazy - but also, heinous beliefs, must not be…fostered, in our magick - and private, and personal - working, and thinking lives.

This is not, a plea for help - but just a very regular, and casual - talk, and chat - about…why I cannot get into certain unusable forms of magick, that…have never, quite helped me out - at all. It is not so eager, and meaningful - when you get attacked, openly - by many…supposedly thinking people, and groups - of foreingers, think of you…as a, very tempting test…because - like, sadly before…(this guy, looks strong - so lets…attempt radionics - firing on himself…) even using the damned, implied - qliphoth - against myself…to gain, nothing - and I do mean, fucking…absolutely nothing, because they got denied - and my sorcery forces, and protection…is far too, grand, and meaningful - to this date.

It is not good stuff, to be - on a sewage, nasty - side of the occult, and magick worlds…where others are very arrogant, but have no positive claims of life belief. It is - again, asinine stupid, and trivial…just straight up, nonsense! I cannot get into it - and the occult wars, part - really fucks things up, for a lot of other people - out there, and it really…fucking needs, to stop…because - eventually innocent people might get involved, and that…is just, radical trouble.

No one needs, to resolve themselves, around - these types of folks, and it is still - largely, and partly why…I have to teach, and instruct - and write my books, a certain way…because damage still - fucking happens…and lazy, arrogant - people - are constantly a threat…nearly everywhere they might be. And it just - plainly sucks ass…to know these fools exist, really.

This is not so much a warning, as much as it might seem - but more of a, meditation - and promise, that things will get better, as long…as you focus on the magick, in positive, and grateful ways, and very…strong - approaches, to sorcery…hopefully envelopes your life…beyond gracefully, and totally.